THE AMBER DEA LUX JOURNAL

Maybe growing older isn't about fixing who we used to be. Maybe it's finally understanding her. Dear younger me, I wish I could tell you that I've figured everything out. That eventually you reach an age where you stop questioning yourself. You stop worrying. You stop making mistakes. You stop caring what people think. You finally become this wonderfully evolved woman who drinks enough water, gets eight hours of sleep, remembers every appointment and never lies awake replayin

There are days when I genuinely think my brain deserves its own television show. Not a drama. Not a documentary. A sitcom. Picture it. Everything is going well. I've had a productive day. I've crossed things off my list. Someone says something kind. I feel motivated. I'm actually enjoying life. Cue the upbeat sitcom music. Then someone sends a text that sounds a little short. Or doesn't text back. Or makes an offhand comment. Or looks distracted during a conversation. The mus

Depression Thrives in Silence — Healing Begins with One Conversation Episode 10 By Amber O. There’s a particular kind of quiet that feels heavy. Not peaceful. Not calm. Heavy. It’s the quiet that depression loves. The quiet where you smile in public and unravel in private. The quiet where you answer “I’m fine” automatically. The quiet where you convince yourself you’re just tired, just stressed, just dramatic. Depression doesn’t always look like falling apart. Sometimes it l