THE AMBER DEA LUX JOURNAL

There comes a point in life when you realize something: You haven't exactly lost yourself. But you may have gotten very, very good at putting yourself last. You work. You take care of people. You pay the bills. You make the appointments. You remember birthdays. You answer the texts. You keep everybody's world moving. And somewhere in the middle of all that living... you can quietly stop participating in your own life. That's what I want to change. And it's the reason behind s

Maybe growing older isn't about fixing who we used to be. Maybe it's finally understanding her. Dear younger me, I wish I could tell you that I've figured everything out. That eventually you reach an age where you stop questioning yourself. You stop worrying. You stop making mistakes. You stop caring what people think. You finally become this wonderfully evolved woman who drinks enough water, gets eight hours of sleep, remembers every appointment and never lies awake replayin

Why do some mistakes become hilarious stories while others stay with us for years? I've accidentally crossed the Canadian border. Twice. You would think after accidentally entering another country once, a person might become particularly skilled at recognizing international borders. Apparently not. And you know what? I can laugh about it. It's ridiculous. It's exactly the kind of story that gets better with time. You tell it over drinks. People laugh. You laugh. Someone inevi

The ideas we carry about sex, desire, intimacy, and our bodies didn't appear out of nowhere. Maybe it's time to decide which ones still belong to us. Have you ever stopped and wondered where your beliefs about sex actually came from? Not what you believe today. Go further back. Before the relationships. Before the marriage. Before the heartbreaks, experiences, confidence, insecurities and years of figuring yourself out. Where did you first learn what sex was supposed to be? B

There comes a moment in life when you stop, look around, and wonder... Why is my body doing that? One day you feel energized, focused, and ready to tackle the world. The next day you're searching the house for your phone... while talking on it. You wake up sweating in the middle of winter. Your favorite jeans fit differently by dinner. Your shoulder hurts because... you slept. If you've reached this season of life, welcome. You're in good company. Nobody Really Prepares You P